You know it's about you

I'm pretty sure you already know who I am, and as long as I kow you don't care about a single word I'm about to say, and probably you'll never see this, but what does it matter at this point? Even though I'm gonna try to make you remember. Remember the girl you knew 48h hours before you throw it all away and treat me like I was nothing. I just wanted to say that I'm still the girl who drove tens of kilometers away just because I was worried and I cared about you. I gave my way to take te medicine to take it to you and try to make you feel better. And it doens't matter what I don't regret it, and I surely would do it again if you need me. I'm just a phone call away. But I'm not making this call. It's up to you. I'm the girls who openned the door of my safest place int the world. My home. My heart, where you could make yourself confortble and feel safe and caring. Then I openned the door of the most intime and particular place in the world to me, and lay down right beside you, looked right into your eyes and told you things I never told anyone. I'm the girl who hugged you tight in my arms, chest to chest, heart to heart (that's when I noticed you heart was beating so fast) Besides this, I openned my heart to you, I trusted you would never hurt me, and we promissed we would never lie to each other. So here I am telling you from the deepest of my soul, I swear I didn't say anyone one to say a word to you, or bother you on any kind,. Specially you father! We talked about it, I know you to don't get along and I completly agree with your attitude about it. Why the f*ck woud I do this to you!? I care about you so much, so so much that I cryed a whole day and a whole night regreting to step on your house that friday an saturday. You wrecked me, and I didn't uderstand what was going on! I swear for my life I never meant anything like that to happpen. Suddenly things got completly out of control and for something I did unporpousely and regret bitterly. You have no idea how sorry I am, and how much it still hurts. All I can say is: forgive me...I never wanted this to happen. I need you to believe me, I'd NEVER EVER do this to you. It's been so f*cking hard to me to forget and just let you go. Maybe it doesn't mean anything to you, maybe I'm just one more girl on your list. But honestly, what did you see when we were face to face, eyes to eyes? Do you really saw I'm that bad bitch? Or a selfish bastard? Come on! I was worried about you, cause I gave tou Thay shitty medication that made you feel bad, I was só fucking worried about you and wanted tô be there for you. I really can't believe you didn't felt the conection through our eyes, when we could see our true colors, of someone who just wanted to have you close take care and never let you down, with all my armors and deffenses down, and I believe maybe yours too. All I have for you is everything good, caring, and loving (don't miss undertood this part). Please... Remember me. Remember me touching you softly so you could relax and sleep well. Remember me pettintg you hair gently, then caressing your face with eyes closed, so you could feel the energy permeating trhough your skin. I know you remember. That is the real me. Or just remember the day we met! we dancing together like we already we're friends for years. The vibe, the energy... Please tell I'm not the only one who still believe in our friendship. You knew one of the best part of me. Isn't that a fair reason for at list a conversation, a second chance to our friendship? I'm asking humbly... Don't throw this all away. Don't let our friendship go... You know we're worthy... You are an incredible man, and as you told me I am eighter. Think about everything the future holds for us: the adventures, the travelling to Dourados out off nothing, the parties, the playing, all the fun moments. I hope you consider it before you make any definitive decision... And finally, I miss you... Truly.